Life probably looks pretty smooth and shiny on the outside, and by outside I mean social media. It's easy to keep things looking pretty and white and full of happiness. And in all honesty I just love creating images that are bright and joyful, especially when life might be going otherwise. It helps me carry on. This is where things get tough to write. My health has been all over the place since I was 16, and the past year it has been steadily getting worse. I had to quit my studies in NY to come home and get well a few years ago. But unfortunately the Drs. only have pieces of what is going on.
Because of this I struggle with depression and anxiety. Some days I don't get out of bed, I wake up in the middle of the night having panic attacks and my skin is visibly taking the toll with my eczema being worse than ever. Sometimes I go days feeling full of energy and I think I must be getting better. It's such a rollercoaster, and I am still learning to take it one day at a time. Trying to embracing whatever comes graciously in order to ride it out. ♡ I could write a lot more on this but we will just start with this :)
I know that this doesn't have anything to do with photography or weddings, but I think it's important to be transparent and honest even when it's not the "happiest", so you can get to know me more! ♡ I am SO thankful I can do what I do everyday. Being able to capture love is something that I adore so much. To capture the bright light that shines through when lovers are in each other's arms is so special and I know I am exactly where I need to be right now.
Next year is holding a lot of "new" starts, especially with my business. Only taking a certain amount of weddings, working with couples that have the same outlook on what a wedding day means as myself, and really focusing on travelling and living life fully with the hubs! ♡
So as I look back on 23 I can't help but smile because even though it has been harder than I ever imagined, there has also been so much growth, and where there is growth there is life.
And my what a beautiful life it is ♡