Why I Chose This.
Why am I a wedding photographer. To be honest, I don't know why I started... But I do know why I decided to jump in headfirst and not look back .
The dream was to work for a magazine as a layout/creative designer. I love working with graphics, type, and images. Photography was just something I enjoyed and was used alongside my design work as a creative outlet or as content for a project. I studied graphic design for 2 years in upstate New York, but because of an unfortunate situation with my health I had to come home before my degree was finished. It's hard for me to write that even after all these years because I hate leaving things unfinished. But I had to be honest with myself and realize that it was time to take care of myself.
So I came back home, moved back in with my parents, and needed a job. It was humbling and not where I thought I would be at 21. Some old acquaintances had gotten ahold of me asking if I'd do some photos for them, and I thought why not! It would be fun! I didn't think it would be something I'd really continue with, my heart was still set on design and most likely going back to school to finish my degree. I applied for a job at a variety of places (basically anything and everything I could find that was hiring) but after not having any luck (like as in not even a response!) I decided to pursue my photography a little more seriously... Maybe it could work? And I am so grateful I didn't get a job in town. It pushed me to put my whole heart into making this work.
My journey went from photographing mostly family, newborn, and the occasional couple's session, and one wedding in the beginning, to still offering any type of session from families to newborn but doing four or five weddings the following summer. I still hadn't let myself fully invest in being a photographer, and I honestly didn't feel like I could identify with the photography community at this point.
That dream that used to be so big and bright and sparkling was now only a small glimmer.
I was creatively drained, I critiqued my work constantly, never satisfied. I stressed that I wasn't good enough, feeling completely out of my element before shoots instead of excited and confidently anticipating capturing a part of someone's story. I had to make a decision. I did a lot of soul searching. Digging deep trying to figure out what I needed to do. I could go back to school, try to start my own graphic design business, or continue being a photographer. I knew what I wanted to do, but I also knew what I needed to do. I needed to be a photographer. I needed to be in a place where I created work that moved me, that moved others. Something that moved people's hearts, and maybe even touch their souls. At this point I had really started to enjoy photographing weddings and love stories and decided that if I was going to do this, I would do it well. I would do it fully. I would jump headfirst and fully open my heart to this. I needed to.
I started to really focus on advertising weddings, still working on my brand and learning lots about the industry along the way. Once I had removed the obstacle that was holding me back from really growing my business (which ironically was myself and my trouble with fully committing to this), I felt so much lighter.
It finally felt right. This past year I was able to shoot nineteen weddings, eight being within a four week span and yes it was as crazy as it sounds, but goodness it was fun! I'm still working on where exactly I feel is a good fit for me in the wedding industry, but I know one thing is for sure.
Honest and true love is beautiful and those love stories needed to be told.
To me it's not about how large, small, fancy, casual of a wedding you have. It's about being unique to yourself as a couple. Being true and real every step of the way. Your wedding or elopement should be a representation of you two as a couple.